You know. Right now things are hectic. My drive home this morning was one of reflection and deep thought. Maybe listening to Third Day brought it on. Who knows. I thought of my hours and how much I can't stand leaving my house each night. I am a home-body, especially at night. My favorite time of the day is right before bedtime when I can put my pajamas on and veg in front of the tv and snuggle with my family. It's dark and I'm in my warm, safe home. I miss those times. I guess the best part of my day right now is early morning when I'm getting home from work when I can take a few minutes to unwind and then stumble through the house as quiet as a mouse being careful not to wake anyone and crawl into bed. I can then finally relax and think while it's dark and quiet. (Of course, I can either hear Rob snore or put my earplugs in and hear myself breathing. Hum....) Anyway, often times my mind races of all the things I need to do that day when I get up but sometimes if all falls into place, I can pray and fall asleep in my Lord's arms (thanks Lesley!!!). I just have to take those few minutes to really place my family in His care.
I also thought about what my family is going to look like in a year. I love VBS and I absolutely love being around children! I couldn't help stop and think that I might have one or two more children there next Summer. Wow! That blows my mind! As I pray for Carissa and her salvation and how much I want her to absorb His word and teachings, I also pray for that child (or children) that will one day hear His word too. It gives me chill bumps! Oh, to pray for all of them to come to know the Lord as I do.
As I close now, my mind still goes back to how glad I am that the Lord knows me and my heart. He knows I worry about how all of this is going to come together. I have to continue to remind myself to obey and trust Him, the maker of everything and author of my life.
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